The Queen is Back

As is to be expected, after a long silence I come out with the unexpected…

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and I don’t mean that in an arrogant way…I mean that I, as the Queen of my own Universe, Mistress of my own Destiny, Painter of my own Canvas….am fully back, present, ready to make things happen.


In previous posts I talked about the end to “Extreme Cocooning” and the “Glass Cocoon” Asleep at Annettes (2) the latter being when you tell yourself you’ve emerged but you’re really only half awake and still locked in there letting some things in but not really participating. So when I say “I’m back” it’s back as in fully present and with more focus than ever before.

The self-awareness and peace I’ve been praying for since I started on my journey are now part of who I am. My focus is compassion, love and service and I reject – but do not condemn nor waste time thinking about – that and those who do not serve me and my higher purpose.

When I go inside with intention I’m able to connect to my higher self – the piece of God the Creator in me – and when I am connected in this way I feel the energy of the universe inside and out.  It’s like I’m swimming in it; breathing it in.  All is beauty.  All is love.  And so it is

.Twin Towers



An ADDiva Off Meds: The Glass Cocoon

Who are we really fooling when we live in denial?

Most folks who are struggling with situations or with life in general know where to look for inspiring stories of folks who made it through a rough patch and conquered the problem, the demon, the setback, the misfortune.  The focus being on the ultimate achievement of some success.

How about when the achievement is getting something accomplished in a single day…maybe just a single thing in a single day?  A little while ago I realized that despite my busting loose with my blog posting and focus on finding a full-time job and progress on getting the house de-cluttered I’d slipped back into my cocoon and if you’d asked me before I had the revelation, I’d have absolutely denied it.  That’s how I came up with the descriptor:  Glass Cocoon.  In the glass cocoon you feel that you’re on track and moving things along but the fact is that you’ve slipped back into some of the perfection/procrastination behaviors and are letting days go by without hitting any of your marks or checking anything off your “list”.

All I know is that I realized I was in there, I’ve emerged once again, and in forward motion yet again.  I closed the door behind me when I left in the hope of hindering a return to there anytime soon but it’s probably inevitable and the best I can do is recognize it sooner and hope out earlier next time and do better the time after that….the thing is that I’ve gotten even better than I had been about keeping up the facade that things are running smoothly and getting done and all is well. This is not a good thing because the one I’m fooling with all that smoke and mirrors nonsense is ME.

What’s in the (Oracle) Cards Today?

Crazy how difficult it can be to ask for help, isn’t it?


Yes, I pulled these cards for a reading yesterday, on Tarot Tuesday but I’m not pretending I wrote this up yesterday and never hit publish.  I’m coming clean with my procrastination/perfection issue (yet again) and moving forward…..

The Cards

Before drawing these cards from the Archangel Deck (Doreen Virtue), I asked my angels and guides for a specific message for that day and here’s what they sent me for a 3 card spread (the history, the current, the ongoing) in which I added cards from the “Whispers of Love” deck–

The Reading

I)  Indigo and Crystal Children – Archangel Metatron:  “You have a bond with children.  In particular, you can help children who are sensitive.”   For me personally, this message is reaffirmation that my most important role in life right now is Mother, and my children and their mental, physical, and spiritual well-being remains my top priority.

The Whispers deck gave up the “Ask for Help”, #14 card: “What is it you really need help with?  Be willing to allow yourself the support you need.”  This question may not be all that easy to answer, right?  If you knew exactly what it was you should be asking for it’d be a lot easier to ask for the right help at the right time.

II) Spread your Wings! – Archangel Ariel: “Do not hold back right now.  The timing is perfect, and you are ready to soar!” The thing I’ve been drawn to working on the most these days is my art – I’ve been painting every chance I get, nearly every day if not every day – and I find that if I make time for creative endeavors it energizes me to take care of the rest of the things that need my attention. I’ve been quite prolific over the past couple of days with what I’m calling my Easter 2016 Series, consisting of angel paintings, one of Jesus on the cross (very abstract) and the latest I finished last night with a Sacred Heart of Jesus theme.

From the Whispers deck:  “Choose Love”, #21 card: “You always have a choice as to what you should do.”  I couldn’t agree more!  Many times we feel backed into a corner but we always have options, particularly options about how to react to situations which often dictates our overall frame of mind and the things we do about whatever it is we’re facing.

III) Hello from Heaven – Archangel Azrael: “Your loved ones in Heaven are doing fine.  Let go of worries, and feel their loving blessings.” This one made me cry – I really felt it – have been thinking about my recently passed away godfather/uncle (it’s been 6 months!!!) and the fact that I’m still in a state of somewhat disbelief that he’s gone. Actually, just the “Hello from Heaven” was a really welcome message on this day.

Whispers then told me: “Love Who You Are”, #8 card: “You are a Divine and wonderful person deserving all of the wonderful things that life has to offer.” Bottom line (for me):  KEEP THE FAITH!

Sacred Heart of Jesus
The Sacred Heart of Jesus




ADD Ramble About Last Thursday

It was the day after I did my webinar….that’s usually a sigh of relief day and this one was no different.  I woke up about the usual time and interacted with the kids as they got themselves ready for school….bless their little hearts, they do that all by themselves since back in the day when Mom had already left for work by the time they got out of bed….

Before going downstairs to drink my hot water, lemon slice, apple cider vinegar elixir I shuffled around with my Archangel Oracle Card deck and pulled a card….got called downstairs for something ….got involved in something else – dust busting around my Boston Fern Project, replied to an email, thought about calling two of my mentors to update them on the career front, my latest art work-in-progress caught my eye and I decided to work on that for a little while then commence recruiting activities….went back upstairs for my phone and headset and remembered I’d drawn the Archangel card….I couldn’t make this stuff up if I tried…this is an actual ADD morning in my life….Yes I drank my elixir, yes I chased it with a black coffee, yes I painted for a while, no, I didn’t get much recruiting done and I can’t recall what exactly got me off that track but here I am to tell you about that card….

I started out very focused and asked the archangels to let me know the most important thing I should focus on for the day and Archangel Sandalphon exclaims “Victory!  Your prayers have been heard and answered.  Have faith.”

“You deserve this time of victory.  Your unwavering focus and dedicating have resulted in blissful manifestation.  Peace and pleasant feelings are your right now.  (Hello!)  Let your focus be on this present moment, and savor each feeling and experience fully.  Know that the future is taken care of in a positive way as you allow yourself to enjoy the present moment.  Feel good about who you are and know that your success benefits others…..

Um, excuse me Archangel Sandalphon…Citibank has been calling and they’d like to know exactly how my success is going to benefit them in the form of a payment….

Background on working with Archangel Sandalphon – helps you speak your truth openly in a way that benefits everyone.  He assists you in living in integrity with your spiritual gifts of prophecy, healing and manifestation fully awakened.

I went a step further and consulting my Angel Numbers Guide about a number from my past that I’ve begun using lately. Without going into detail about my specific number I wanted to tell you that the meaning is that I am being assisted in staying positive in my endeavors and supported by God and the ascended masters in confidently following my dreams.  The particular number combo reduces to the number 7 which tells me that I’m on the right path and the outcome will exceed my expectations.  As well, the #7 is a sign that Divine magic is supporting me and opening doors of opportunity….well as my previous post indicated, I’m getting inquiries related to work opportunities that I never even solicited….people are finding me based on the information and the energy I’ve put out there about myself and what I do….These things are coming full circle.  I don’t know about you but I’m very excited about what the future holds….Thank you Archangel Sandalphon!

I Couldn’t Make This Stuff Up

Admit it, life would be boring without me……

I was messing around in an art journal and got up to get a pair of scissors….sat down at my desk, checked WordPress to see what was going on, might have peeked at Facebook as well…..2 hours later I get up to go downstairs because I haven’t yet eaten dinner…and remembered that I’d originally gotten up for scissors two hours ago……

Add this to the Wiki page about “Cynde Time” LOL

p.s.  the dinner was homemade chicken pot pie….



Goddess Oracle Card Reading

Ask, Seek, Knock…..

3 Card Spread Saturday Evening

Intention:  When I did the 7 Card Cross Spread the other night the message I received boiled down to “we’ve already told you you’re on the right track and everything you need to move forward is available to you.  My question Saturday night was to get more specific about what I need to do NEXT…..IMMEDIATELY.

I had put all of these different things in motion and sought immediate guidance for “What is the Most Critical Thing I Can Be Working on Today?

Using Doreen Virtue’s Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards I pulled the following cards.

First Card:  essentially speaks to the back story of your question or situation

White Tara – sensitivity – 

message: “you are becoming increasingly sensitive.  avoid harsh relationships, environments, situations, and chemicals.”

ordinarily I don’t write any interpretation especially when I’m sharing my own reading but in this case I must say that it made a whole lot of sense to me that something had driven me into my cocoon a few months back 

Second Card:  right now

Cordelia – go outside

message:  “You have been indoors too long.  go outside and get some fresh air.”

ya think? how did Cordelia know about the cocoon???

Third Card:  going forward

Athena – inner wisdom

message: “you know what to do.  trust your inner wisdom, and take appropriate action without delay.”

How Did I Get To Where I Am Right Now?

So I have all of these various things going on – all touched on in my CJ’s Unrealistic Goals for 2016 and on any given day I’m needing to dive into to one of the areas – the problem is that knowing myself (ADD hello) if write up a weekly schedule for myself and say ok, on this day I’ll do this and next day I’ll work on that….I’ll completely ignore my own list.  This is how I roll and what I’ve learned about myself in isolated moments of clarity is that I have so much more energy and get so much more done if I go with what I’m feeling at the moment.  That’s where it gets tricky because if I’m cocooning I’m purposely trying to avoid feeling and you can see how that ends up, right….I’m not in touch with those feelings about things I’m enthusiastic about so I’m enthused about shutting the world out and playing Mahjong Solitaire on my Kindle Fire.  Get the picture?

What I’m Doing About It Today

I hope this glimpse into the inner workings of my mind and the self-talk that goes on here isn’t scaring you because for me, it’s exciting when a bunch of thoughts, ideas, concepts come together and the first thing I want to do is sit  down and write about it so here we are.

In working with these oracle cards, listening regularly to guided meditation recordings, having a series of reiki sessions, reading, writing, and contemplating all of this I feel I can really relate to the messages I’m receiving – specifically messages about writing, creativity, helping others, teaching others, my level of intuition, and so forth, however, that stuff’s not putting food on the table or paying my cell phone bill at the moment, know what I mean?

What do I need to be doing today????  More self talk – “Seriously Cynde?  You know a planeload of cash isn’t going to dump thousand dollar bills onto your front lawn…you need to keep working at the things you’ve put in motion and be Patient.  

That “P” word and I have never been close friends but along my journey I’ve worked at it and so for today I took a soothing bath (essential oils I added were spearmint & eucalyptus btw) to just refresh and cleanse.  While soaking I listened to Lilian Eden’s guided meditation The View – Unleashing Your Greatness found on YouTube.  There’s the link, I’m not embedding it because it’s 30 minutes long, but I highly recommend it if you’re the slightest bit interested in guided meditation.

During the meditation part I did experience a number of very clear ideas about specific art & painting things to work on today so once I hit Publish I’m headed down to my studio to get started on exactly what came to mind during the meditation.  Of course, the fact that I’m on United States, Eastern Daylight Time, means that it’s nearly 3:00 in the afternoon and I should be thinking about what I’m making for dinner hasn’t completely escaped me but rather than letting the fact that I don’t now have the whole full day  be an excuse for procrastinating I’m going to work while I think about what to make, take a break to make it (and surely then it will also be time to open some wine), and then get back to the paints.  This, by the way is known as “Cynde Time” as in there are no clocks in my world….

You can bet that I’ll be sharing the results but for now I’m off to get started.

Aside: The Goddess Oracle Cards come with a guidebook that goes into the history of each of the goddesses and what she’s all about and the ways she can help you if you reach out to her.  I find that extremely interesting but not relevant to my primary intention in writing this for you today. Please do let me know if you’d like to hear more!!!!  




CJ’s Bucket List for 2016

Today’s prompt is a bucket list JusJoJan Jan 5 2016 Bucket List.

It figures this would be assigned since I make it a point to NOT make New Year’s Resolutions, at least not in the traditional “announce it on New Year’s Eve or New Year’s Day” sense.

Right now any bucket list is preempted by the fact that I’m job hunting but since this one is specific to 2016 I’ll play along nicely…

  1. New job
  2. Whip my blog into shape and write regularly
  3. Get all of my social media sites in order and synched with one another in a way that makes sense – e.g. the art website, the blog, etc.
  4. Finish de-cluttering in the basement
  5. Organize art studio area
  6. Review family files and go over life insurance policies
  7. Have a fabulous flower garden this summer
  8. Set up Etsy shop for art
  9. Use one of our pieces of exercise equipment for 15 min/day
  10. Do more menu planning and prepping meals ahead of time
  11. Resist going into my cocoon when I get overwhelmed

I suppose I should add “do writing assignments on the day they’re assigned” but what fun would that be?