An ADDiva Off Meds: The Glass Cocoon

Most folks who are struggling with situations or with life in general know where to look for inspiring stories of folks who made it through a rough patch and conquered the problem, the demon, the setback, the misfortune.  The focus being on the ultimate achievement of some success.

How about when the achievement is getting something accomplished in a single day…maybe just a single thing in a single day?  A little while ago I realized that despite my busting loose with my blog posting and focus on finding a full-time job and progress on getting the house de-cluttered I’d slipped back into my cocoon and if you’d asked me before I had the revelation, I’d have absolutely denied it.  That’s how I came up with the descriptor:  Glass Cocoon.  In the glass cocoon you feel that you’re on track and moving things along but the fact is that you’ve slipped back into some of the perfection/procrastination behaviors and are letting days go by without hitting any of your marks or checking anything off your “list”.

All I know is that I realized I was in there, I’ve emerged once again, and in forward motion yet again.  I closed the door behind me when I left in the hope of hindering a return to there anytime soon but it’s probably inevitable and the best I can do is recognize it sooner and hope out earlier next time and do better the time after that….the thing is that I’ve gotten even better than I had been about keeping up the facade that things are running smoothly and getting done and all is well. This is not a good thing because the one I’m fooling with all that smoke and mirrors nonsense is ME.

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