I’m not saying I’m throwing in the towel, not by a long shot. What I am doing here is coming clean and letting you all know that I had a total of three writing sessions on this. Today is the 25th. I have five days left to bring this puppy home….or not. I’m going to write some more regardless of whether it’s practical to even try to finish by the 30th. I’m not saving this for next year – it will be finished by the time November 2013 rolls around.
I had the craft fair to focus on up until last weekend – not an excuse – just an explanation of how I chose to prioritize my time and energy. There’s more to write and it wants to come out. I just need to open the document and get going. This isn’t a block and I’m not resisting it – it’s just that right at this minute I would rather paint a little. But if I say I’ll start writing after Mass this evening then I’ll feel like it’s an obligation and I may not do it, so I’m not saying that but now you know that’s what I’m thinking.
Lots of things to think about here lately. Baby boy has a birthday coming up and he’ll be turning 11. I decided to get him a mobile phone so he has access to call for emergencies, can have contact information handy, etc. and of course play games. He’s doesn’t know it yet but it’s an iPhone 4. He’s been very responsible with his (my old) Kindle and I really think he’ll appreciate the fact that he’s being recognized for that with additional responsibility that sets him apart from the baby sister. She has Dad’s old iPhone to play games on so she’ll be somewhat ok with him getting a phone that will be “his phone”
On another front, I had some interesting news from “back home”. My sister hasn’t spoken to my mother in nearly 6 months. It’s interesting because now that’s she’s much older and needs next to nothing from my mom and my aunt and uncle she has less time for them. I outlived my usefulness to her years and years ago but the elders have finally caught up. Of course the only comfort I can possibly derive from that is the fact that things are turning out the way I knew they would. Sometimes being right ain’t all that, is it?
And on still another front I am thinking I’ll get a job offer this week. This still has a bit of the “pinch me I must be dreaming” aura about it but this is working out just the way I needed it to at this point in my life and my career. Here is where I go back and link what’s happening now to my conversation with God as I was walking over the Key Bridge last December. He made it clear things had to change with how I was (barely) living with the nutso job and pressure and mind games and manipulation and He also made it clear that I didn’t have to be nervous about how things would all work out. No, He made it clear that if I relied on the faith that He already knew I had in Him that the way would be shown to me and things would fall into place nicely, and they have.
This is the most beautiful of experiences–seeing the manifestation of your faith in God in your life. With this kind of thing going on I’m not sweating finishing my first novel in five days, starting my Christmas shopping, or paying my cell phone bill. I’ve reached a balance where I worry very little about what might happen in the future and focus on my goals and objectives in the present day and offer the work that I do up to God…..always putting my children’s welfare at the top of my priority list. This is what God told me He wants for me in this life so this is how I”m living it.
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