I’ve been stuck…again….or maybe I should say still? Even being off from work for 3 months there are so many things to think about and do and get done by a certain time that you can easily ignore the need to center.
And I did it again this week – skipped yoga on Monday (overslept actually) and then went today and feel a million times better in every way. One of the things that occurred to me as I drove home is that just as in yoga when you inhale and extend then exhale and deepen your stretch if you continue to work at it you will find more “stuff” inside of you that you can let go to feel ever lighter. I recently read “The Power of Letting Go” and it all made perfect sense both in how I felt holding on to the stuff and in how liberating it would be to start letting some of it go.
Today in “Opening to Grace” we focused on forward bending to open up the back for the purpose of releasing negative samskaras, which are negative impressions that we reinforce by repitition to become the “self-lacerating mental patterns that underlie low self-esteem and self-destructive relationships. The negative samskaras are what hinder our positive evolution.” (Forbes, n.d.) So back to the comparison with deepening the stretch as you hold the pose and breath and root yourself into the earth as we open up to release we can find more and more samskara baggage that we didn’t even realize we owned and get rid of it along with the rest.
I find that one of the most difficult things for me to let go is the concern about what others think of me. I know it’s a very common thing and it can get really out of hand. I’ve found that rather than being an arrogant position to not care what others think it is more arrogant to believe that they’re thinking of you at all, LOL. In all seriousness, if we spent all of our time trying to justify ourselves to those we thought understood us but didn’t even scratch the surface well that would be a lifelong task.
Instead, in centering ourselves and releasing a samskara or two we begin to understand that the false impressions come out of their own insecurities and self-doubt and at the end of the day we are who we are and what anyone else thinks can never, ever change that.
Forbes, B. (n.d.). Stuck in a Rut? Yoga Journal. Retrieved from: http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/1318